stop reconnecting with toxic people from your past because you’re lonely. focus on getting better and attracting better.
6i:
it takes years to develop your craft. do not romanticize the idea of an ‘overnight success’. be a student. grow organically. get really good. hate your work. start over. find new ways to express the same ideas. the student becomes the master. your time will come.
letting someone create a false narrative of you is a small price to pay for having rid yourself of their toxicity. let them say what they want, if you and God know the truth, your life will flourish and their lies will rot theirs.
lay out intentions like paving of ease in future moments. “i’m gonna have fun in class tomorrow”, “when i go for a walk i’m gonna see so many beautiful things”, “i’m gonna have the most cozy night tonight”, “i’m gonna be very present with my friend on wednesday”, etc. see how easily the moment adapts. it’s like a little spell to set yourself up for goodness
considering i probably have a lot of young followers maybe i should try and be a better influence but all i do is say curse words on the internet
genuine advice: be nice. life gets easier after high school. and dont ever start smoking cigarettes. dont judge ppl who do but dont start okay
friendship isnt supposed to hurt and wear whatever clothes you want
My therapist told me something meaningful yesterday, she said “It’s important to remember that when you’re depressed you have to nurse yourself and be extra gentile towards yourself. Just like an athlete wouldn’t break an ankle then force themselves to run that ankle. They rest as it heals and do not think “I am a failed athelete” they think, “right now something isn’t working so i’ll take care of myself until it does.“
Just like a broken bone, depression can change the way your daily life plays out, and pushing yourself too hard and getting frustrated when you don’t feel better is just like trying to run on that broken ankle and getting frustrated when it doesn’t heal.
Read this. Then read it again. And then save it and read it over and over when you are depressed.
2019 is gonna be a year of love!!! a year of resilience!!! a year of “i did that”!!! a year of finding good music and being moved by lovely things and seeing your goals crystallize and come closer & closer into reach!!! and above all it’s gonna be a year of forgiving yourself for screwing up and pushing through ANYWAY!!!
